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Moments of Cosmic Consciousness
Early in my work as a developing psychic I came upon a very special book, Cosmic Consciousness... synchronicity at work again in my life - it helped me to understand what had happened to me in a series of meditations... an awakening that was beyond description, the sense of a light going on in me that changed my life forever... In the years since, I have come across this phenomenal type of psychic or spiritual awakening only rarely.... however, it seems to be happening much more frequently now... Here are some of the more startling stories... perhaps they will be familiar to you and you also have experienced a moment of Cosmic Consciousness... a kind of ecstasy that Bucke describes as Divine Illumiation...
Cosmic Consciousness : A Study in the Evolution of the Human Mind 1905. Absolutely the best book on the nature of cosmic consciousness (divine illumination). Who it manifests with, when, where, how and why. Detailed information on and a study of numerous people who have been blessed with this divine insight. --
The past two and a half years have been a pretty wild ride for me, not that the 21 years before that weren't exciting. They just pale in comparison to these past couple of years. The following events are all actual experiences, so in essence this is a true story. Is it "The Truth"? You can decide what you want to believe. Whether you do or don't please share any questions or comments about it that come to mind ( eyedrewu@hotmail.com ). Time will tell on a lot of this but till then I'm just gonna continue enjoying this adventure of life. I hope you enjoy these expeiences whether fantasy or reality.
My life really picked up speed in Dec. of 2000. I was 21 years old about to get out of the Army. I had a job lined up for 45k a year. I felt like I was on top of the world. In the months leading up to this I had been eating a lot of acid and other consciousness expanding substances. My friends and I were deep thinkers on the mysteries of life, you know meaning of life, who am I, why am I, and that kind of stuff. I had finally come to the conclusion that I was in essence nothing but I still experienced something which I seemed to have an (what at the time seemed like an unnatural) ability to control what I experienced. So I was nothing experiencing that which I chose to and I chose that which was pleasurable to my being. This was an epiphany, the kind where you can feel a key turning and unlocking part of your mind. I really felt like I had life figured out.
Around Dec. 21 I was watching TV one night when the TV imploded on itself causing a black hole to appear in the entertainment center cutting through the very fabric of reality or what I like to call the thread of time. The hole began to suck in the room unsewing it from top to bottom. The world was unraveling like a sweater someone was pulling at a loose thread on. I saw the whole room unsew including my body leaving nothing in its place. As the last of the thread was going in the hole I (my spiritual essence) jumped on to the thread and began to travel on it. I call it the thread of time because it has recorded on it everything that has happened in time.
This experience lasted about 12 hours yet I seemed to experience all of eternity at least 3 times. I went through what I believe are my past lives. I watched creation in reverse. I found myself in heaven, that place of perfect light and being. I experienced myself as God. I experienced being in the presence of the source of all. I remembered the first day of this creation when we all gathered in the nothing that was and watched as God split open eternity with the light of creation and let us enter to experience that which was now created.
After finding myself in heaven I made a decision. Heaven seemed to be a timeless state of being so words like after, at first, and others of the sort may have no meaning but to try and tell this in this state (our shared reality) I will be using them. At first I was not aware of myself just that I was experiencing this perfect light and state of being. When I remembered my Self I realized that I had died in my apartment and was now in Heaven. While there were other beings there, there was a oneness to all that were there. I was given a choice as to how I was to spend eternity. All I could think of was that I wanted to go back and tell everyone of Heaven. I was told that no one would believe me so there wouldn't be any point in going back. The feelings became very intense in that while I could spend eternity anyway I chose all I wanted was to go and tell everyone about Heaven, whether they believed me or not. As soon as I thought this, Heaven began to unravel like the apartment had done. (Maybe I should of just asked for a couch, blanket, pillow, and TV that always had something I wanted to watch on )
After heaven unraveled I was back on the thread of time getting close to the beginning. It was like I was spinning around very fast with an angelic choir resonating through me singing Are you ready to know the truth. All of the sudden I knew what was coming and I did not want to know, if I was in a body I would have been kicking and screaming, however the threads were spinning too fast for me to go back the way I came. Then, I was no longer traveling the threads but was holding the end/beginning of them with the rest piled up next to me. I was God; I looked like the old man with white flowing hair, a stern face, with infinitely deep eyes. I thought "God that was great" which struck me very funny. Then I wondered if I would ever be able to spin another yarn as great as that. Now that thought nearly busted my gut with laughter.
After I composed myself I began to get the feeling there was still a greater truth somewhere in the nothing that surrounded me. So I shed the form I was in becoming pure spirit. After traveling the nothing I came across another spirit exactly like me. I realized though that I was exactly like it. Now while no words were spoken these words best describe what happened. I realized this was God, Creator and source of all. I then asked who I was. No response. I realized that if I knew who I was then God would confirm it. I came to the conclusion that if this was God and I was here with God then I was God's perfect creation. Still no response. I kept repeating this because I knew it was true yet still received no response. I decided to leave and go off to do my own thing. When I went to leave God said you are my perfect creation. Now even though I had just been claiming this when God told me it made me feel horrible. If I was in a body I would have been begging and crying for God to take it back. There was no way, I was to horrible had done to many horrible things this couldn't be true. I felt God was to perfect and full of love for something like me to exist. Then God embraced me and told me (s)he understands. (Not saying God is a man or woman I just don't like saying It understands) This was the greatest feeling of love and understanding I have ever felt. I knew God understood why I had done any and everything I had done. I had to be able to realize and except who I am. When I felt this love I wondered how come there was so much suffering and pain in the world and God told me, I love you. I love you so much I would never hurt you. However, I love you so much I would never stop you from doing anything you want to do. Then I was ready to go back and tell the world what I experienced. A seed appeared and began to vibrate. Then it exploded. It was the big bang and I rode the light back to my body. I was in my bed with my friends looking over me. I guess they could tell I was back and asked if I was OK. I told them I had some amazing stuff to tell them, but they just said that's nice now get ready we are gonna be late for work.
Soon thereafter I was out of the Army. I didn't take the job. To say the least my world was turned upside down and flipped inside out. I had taken some acid and mushrooms that night so I knew how this would sound to anyone I would try and tell. I realized that it was true no one would believe me, but I couldn't accept that there was no point in sharing this experience. I moved to be near some family in North Carolina . They seemed to know about God and since my grandfather is a Baptist preacher it seemed like the place to be. I have since learned that they know much more about religion than they do about God. I didn't know the difference back then so I am not surprised to find that many people still do not see the difference. While the bible belt isn't the best place to bring up new (different) ideas about God, I have always become close and accepted with anyone I spend time with, many people would discuss with me about what I had experienced. Between talking with any one open to discussion and reading anything I could that seemed to relate to my experience(philosophy, religion, history) I gained a very open perspective on eternity and existence.
Fast forward to Sept. 2002. I had another epiphany, unlocking of the mind. It was basically the same thing just a little more detailed. We are all experience processors with control over what we experience. For me the point of life seemed to be to create experiences, which are pleasing to experience. I shared this with my neighbor one afternoon and he said that he understood what I was saying but that I was leaving the matter of God out of the picture. He meant accepting Christ to get to heaven. Now, that wasn't an issue for me but I did seem to leave God out of the picture. I went home to think about it. I wondered whether I was creating what I experienced or experiencing what God has created. I realized that didn't really matter. I realized that through good times and bad I have enjoyed everything I have experienced. So since I have enjoyed yesterday and today I see no reason why I wouldn't enjoy tomorrow.
I was so happy about this I took some DXM (disassociative found in cough syrup) over to my neighbors to celebrate. That night as we were coming down we discussed my epiphany and what it meant towards my life in practice not just theory. I believe it was God speaking through him to me because while his eyes were rolling up into his head the questions were deep, insightful, and precise. By the time I left to go home I realized I had almost everything I could ever want. I was living in a beautiful place, surrounded by friends and family I love and am loved by, and with my Army college money I didn't have to work for 3 years while I went to school. The only thing I was missing was finding that special someone to have a family with and share this amazing experience we call life. Then I would truly have heaven on Earth. I went to sleep at total peace that night.
Even though I didn't totally understand why and what had happened to me I accepted it has a gift to help me enjoy life freely. I once again felt like I understood life and was on top of the world. I was able to enjoy that clarity from the time I left his trailer until the time I went to sleep on my couch. The next morning when I awoke it was like I was watching myself on TV rather than experiencing the freewill of life. I awoke the next morning and knew my reason for being; I am Christ and the end of this world/beginning of Heaven on Earth is at hand. I went to tell my neighbor however I was having such an intense experience I could hardly keep from crying or make much sense. He took me to my cousin's place. I was sitting on his couch trying to figure out how I was going to be able to convince them that I was Christ. My cousin asked if I wanted a cigarette to calm my nerves. I accepted however it made me worse off. He then asked if I wanted to burn a joint to chill out. It seemed like a good idea at the time however that was not such a good idea. I pretty much blacked out then but my cousin told me I was running around his place like a maniac. Saying that I was Christ, my friend Chance was the Devil, that my ex-girlfriends daughter was mine, and the world was gonna end in Aug of 2012. I came to in my trailer with my cousins sitting there. They told me what all I had done and said, then asked if I was OK to be left alone, then left. I was laying there thinking what had I done. Thinking how everyone was gonna think I'm crazy. Then I remembered/realized Oh my God its true. I got up and looked out my front door and saw a vision of Heaven on Earth. It's kind of hard to describe although it's very similar to the world as it is. Basically all needs are taken care of so you no longer have to do anything and are left to do whatever you want to do. You can walk out your front door and know the whole world is open to you to be experienced.
With my father's family being southern Baptist and my mother's being Roman Catholic you can probably imagine how this has gone over with them. They asked me to commit myself to a mental hospital. I figured it would help them to see that I'm not insane. While I was in there I met this guy who when I told him I was Christ, broke into tears like I had never seen before. I tried to comfort him, and then he told me that they were tears of joy because he had found me and that he was God the father. He said he had been looking for me for 30 years and was just what he expected. Although there was 27 years difference between us we could relate many common experiences and perspectives. One night we were discussing how the kingdom is gonna be and the matter of drugs came up. While I saw them having a place he became upset saying that this was an old argument we have been having for what seems like eternity. I definitely had a strong Déjà vu going on with that discussion, like I had definitely had it before. He said if I would have given up on that notion Heaven would have been visible to all ages ago.
Ten days was enough for the doctors to say that while believing oneself to be Christ is a symptom of schizophrenia I displayed no other signs of mental illness so they released me.My new beliefs quickly wore out my welcome in North Carolina so I have since moved back up to Delaware with my parents. Once my parents said there was no way they were gonna believe me I felt that I wasn't doing anyone any good here. I decided I was gonna go out on the road telling everyone what was going on and the good news that the kingdom of heaven is at hand. The night before I was to leave I had a dream. I was back in basic training in 1997 yet I remembered everything that was gonna happen to me. Then a voice said, now if I let you know all this then would you let it consume you or would you continue to enjoy your life. When I awoke I realized that it had consumed me and I was no longer truly enjoying my life. I've since decided to just take life one day at a time and make sure I enjoy what I am doing. I hope everyone else will do the same. I'm sure I know where this is all heading but one thing that has made me who I am is always staying open to all possibilities. I guess the next 9 and a half years will tell on this one. Although I think things are gonna get very intense before then.
Ok sweetheart, so, you are Christ - how are you living your life in a
Christ-like way? I say this with much respect... I recognize what you are
writing about... you have opened to what some call Cosmic Consciousness and
others would call the Christ Consciousness, (there is an excellent book
called Cosmic Consciousness, written at the turn of the century - get it at
the library, very useful!) and you have absorbed a truth about yourself
that few are willing to admit... but with such awareness comes
responsibility - time to stop scaring your friends and family, get grounded
in who and what you are and get on with the job of being awake and One...
you have a job to do, and that isn't about being a missionary and trying to
get folks to change or to believe in what you say,,,, no this is about your
BEING it, living your life in a responsible and loving way, making the most
of each precious moment that you have, being IN the moment and fully
present - you are not fully present when you are claiming a child in the way
you described here... this is the behaviour a man who has gone too far...
mad??? I know that this is not the case, but you must ground out dear...
I say this because I have an intimate knowledge of your experiences and I
know that unless you begin to honour them with deep work on oneself,
digging in and making the most of your life, you will lose whatever
advantage you gain from the connections.
Please understand that the kind of journeys you have been taking with drugs
are not so different from the shaman's journey and unless they are given
that kind of respect, the "snake" will turn on you...
Thanks for sharing your story, Lotsa LLLove, Danielle
Hello, I am a Wetsuweten first Nations 53 years old man. There are times I would sit by the river and wonder if I told a story about me!!will anyone understand? I will start from the beginning. I was in a beautifull place the only energy that flowed was love, unity and peace! We all wore white robes with a gold rope around the waist. I stood at something that looked like a balcany! looking at mother earth, the sun was just to the right side of where we were! A voice behind us said we we're watching Mother Earth going through changes again!
I was given a choice ,to stay up there and watch ti happening! or I can come down and help! After watching Mother Warth a bit more, thinking if I should or not? Sure I'll go!! was my response!! I was standing at an edge of a tunnel, being given instructions to why I was being sent down, also was told what kind of thing that I was going to have live in for the period of being here! It's called human and it is very delicate.
As soon as the planets lined up, I started to go forwards. I can see exactly where I was going! Just before I entered the little body going down, I looked to the left and saw the trees, the sun's shadow was at a 45 degree angle in the morning. I entered the something that for the first time felt warm, like hopping in a tub! I could see some people, they saw me and began to slobber all over me. I was trying to tell them why I was sent down!!
During my growing years with my grandparents from birth until the age 15, my parents passed on. Grandfather was 126 years old.both being traditional medicine people. Since then now I am 53 and have died a few times and come back to talk about it ! The last one was about 10 or 15 years ago, I went into a tunnel like I always do, there is always a lady of pure white light waiting for me. She asked me to walk into her and I did. Wow, the energy is pure love. She said "farther", I did and came across a wall of books that was long ,like the wall of china, energy poured into me from the wall until I can feel the whole wall was now in me, the energy was wow!! The beautifull woman said I can go back now! I started back into the tunnel, dropped back into my body, slept in the ICU for 2 days. When I woke up there was a nurse sitting beside me. When I looked at her! I knew everything about her. "hey!! your awake she says!! I smiled and said watch the heart monitor, I can make it go funny, I focused and the monitor went all wacky!! She started to panic and said to stop it! I did, I looked out the window and saw Mother Earth. I knew all about her past, present and futur.
Now I know things. Just know things. Not long after I was at home with my family fixing a light fixture, thunder clouds was over head, all of a sudden coming in the window a ball of light about 3 feet in diamiter, in it I saw my own face smiling at me, it shot blue energy all over me. When it was done, it went back into the clouds and talk about lightning and thunder that rock the ground! A few days later another ball of energy came in front of me ,inside was a pyramid with blue energy all around it, a beautifull womans voice said, 'Put your hands through it!" ,I did and the energy went into my hands, boy can I do amazing things with my hands if I stand in total darkness you will see me standing in a great big bubble of energy that looks like northern lights, with my hands I take negative energies out of people.
tthe rest is along story, apparitions one day a big ball of energy appeared in the living room inside were medicine peoples, ascended masters like Jesus, Mother Mary, Buddha, spirits that are out of this world so to speak. I was given a name, from now on you will be known as manyhorses in the spirit world said the spokesman. They also gave me a song to go with the name which I sing once a in awhile, all is wisdom all is energy, smiles all my relations, manyhorses. What put me into place was my grandparents teachings -the oldest ancient footprints. Absalute truth, manyhorses
Thank you for sharing this amazing story with us... so what are you doing
with your wisdom... how are you helping yourself and others to heal these
days? You have been given this knowing for good reason... Lotsa LLLove,
Danielle
Danielle, I don't know why you are being so kind as to responding to me like you are. You would probably be amazed at all the coldness out there. If you sat with me and we talked about what has been happening these 15 months it is like nothing I have ever experienced.
I joke with my roomate about how "crazy" I am. I can only tell you that I have researched all kinds of things. The way it began was a slow nudging towards a different avenue then what I was doing.
I can only say this to you... I am not crazy. I hear music, I had this "magnetic" pulling which closely resembled something trying to pull my soul right out of me on the night of the eclipse. Near the end of the "wierd" encounter I saw quick little "clips" of myself talking to someone in an outdoor setting (not from this life). I am connected to the Mayan Myth somehow. I have LIVED the Dendereh Zodiac and I MEAN LIVED IT. From the Bull of the Mother, Self love Father, the Bridge builder brother and the Bridge destroyer brother. I AM THE FREE LOVE. I am a nut I know, but Danielle...... If I am right, all I need is an astronomer to help me with the "charts" showing that my family descended in the same "picture" as the eclipse in August 11, 1999. I BET WE DO!
Now, lets see if you still want to be in contact with me now that I have "spilled" my guts. I am a positive loving and strong woman. I am intelligent, intuitive, and I am a bit of a detective. I caught on to the "clues" and followed them with faith and trust. I can remember "before" I was in this life. Danielle, I am not speaking of another "past life" but before we were here, and when we were on the other side. I don't know why I remember, but the memory is VIVID and REAL and I can't help but remember that it took place.
I know it's crazy but it is true. Eventually once I get it in a more professional order I will find a contact to support me. The web you looked at may appear to be "hostile" and negative, but it is true and a lot of people are disgusted with the way things are going. I've tried the nice, positive approach, and everyone loves me but WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO TO CHANGE IT? I already know what I will do, and I already know how wonderful it will make everyone feel to know they are not alone. It is going to be WONDERFUL to celebrate that we are not going to live like this anymore but we, the people united will make a change for a life that will be worth LIVING.
Take care and thank you for your responses. You are very very kind.
Debra
Your story is not crazy, but you need to calm down and get grounded with it or it will all go away leaving you to wonder with your memories what happened... if this has happened to you it is for a good reason - and not necessarily because you are to go out there and heal the world, but more importantly so you can heal yourself and make the most of the transformation that is upon us... it is time to go quietly within and learn and heal... one of the core lessons of this transformation is accepting the God within, and learning to BE it... no one will listen to you otherwise... and gone are the days when as missionaries we would attempt to convert others to our way of thinking... this is something that has to come upon each person, one by one, in their own time, in their own way.
The greatest power you have right now to change the world is to change yourself... to look at all the ways that you can learn to express the love in you, the Godessence in you, to stop the judgments, accept the purpose, to see God in ALL That IS, even what appears to be evil... it is all ONE... in order for the God in us to be able to manifest, to function, we must set our egos aside, give up what we think are the "shoulds" in life, let God's way happen... my guides often tell me to simply stand back and observe, to hold the Light and get out of the way...
So what I am saying dear is that the first thing you must do to accept this gift you've been given is to turn inward and use the new insights to refine your character and build your soul... the Law of One states that what one does for oneself affects all others - so when you take time to focus on healing all of the old angers and resentments, the fears and pains within you, you enable all those around you to find this same space... it is time for good works of all kinds, especially those that lead you to fulfill more of your potential as a human BEING ONE.
It will take each of us, one by one, finding our way to Wholeness to make it wonderful... and the wonder is that as each one finds their way, others feel the light and are drawn to it also... I try to think of myself as a rain drop on a pond... as the drop falls, it is unique, special, a singular event, and as it hits the pond you can see it rippling out, but then it is absorbed, lost in the oneness of the pond... it has made its contribution, fulfilled its purpose as a singular energy and then it is transformed, time and again... yet its energy changes everything it has touched....
In order to really make use of what you have learned and seen, you must begin to sort it all out in a meaningful way and assimilate it, integrate it into your being so that your thoughts and feelings, your heart and soul are all fully connected with it. There is a reason why certain memories come up, why certain knowledge is given... lessons to be learned from these old experiences, old karma to be resolve, new directions to be taken...This is way I urge you to meditate and pray often, and also to keep a journal, to write down and document what you have learned... and then go and document your research... don't be thinking of what you ought to DO with the information you have gained, but rather how you want to BE with it... ask for guidance, call your angels to take you step by step through your process...
The point I am making is that the awakening, the inner knowing is really just the first step in a very long process... it is very exciting and stimulating, like rockets going off in your mind and body at times...so you will be propelled forward rapidly.... but then you have to settle down and get to work, first on yourself and your own life in order to make this experience a valuable shift that will last all of your life... the process it initiates can be grueling my dear... be prepared to be tested along the way, and sometimes severely, to even have your life threatened as you get closer and closer to the truth... it is the way of it, the way of the mystic... the good news is that when you undertake the inner work, commit to Being One, your life does take on a magical quality - and your light shines on all around, so that they too are drawn to higher and higher vibrations... at the end of the day, the second coming I think is about each of us learning to be ONE, to accept the Christ and Buddha energy within us...
Do look up the book Cosmic Consciousness by Bucke... Lotsa LLLove, Danielle
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